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I Was So Blinded

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Here's a poem I wrote when I was going through low self esteem issues. It all began when I auditioned for a modeling agency called John Casablanca. I was 19 at the time and wanted to reach for the stars and pursue acting. So, I went to the agency, spoke to an agent and received the biggest shock, one that would almost paralyze me in life.

After she analyzed me from head to toe, the woman took me to her office and had pictures on the wall of cute ordinary next door type girls and super models like Cindy Crawford and so on.
She asked me which girls on the wall did I compare myself to and in all honesty, I said the next-door type.
As soon as I said that, she said "You have such an unrealistic attitude". "The industry will chew you up and spit you out."
I told her she was very unprofessional and I took my photos and walked out. I was crushed and I didn't know what to do. Those words were so harsh and they penetrated deep into my soul.
I began to believe them and not like what I saw in the mirror. I hated myself and wished I wasn't born. I had a loving friend named Robert who wrote me a letter and had given me a rose to remind me of my beauty and worth but I didn't to want to believe it. I was blinded and hurt until one evening I went to church service and asked a beautiful lady friend of mine named Liz, If I was ugly. She responded "You are beautifully and wonderfully made by God"and she read me the verse in Psalm 139. I began to read it for myself until it sinked into my soul and transformed my inner being. When I looked into the mirror, I started to like what I saw and appreciate and know that God does not make junk. I was beautiful and loved.

After months passed, I went to another audition but this time at Jonathan Robert Powers just to see what they would say but this time I was ready for the good and the bad, meaning the comments and rejections were not going to harm me.
The audition went great, and the lady there said I was beautiful and I had a great facial profile but my weight was a bit heavy. LOL inside of me I was like
"ok I'm 108 pounds if I get skinnier, I'll be bones".
So I said thank you with a smile and left but this time gleaming and very pleased. I did not need validation anymore and I grew confident in whom I was becoming and because I was a child of God, I felt like a princess.

In the picture below, at the age of 19 was when my low self esteem issues took place. I was surely blinded. LOL
You may wonder, if I still go through low self esteem issues, sure I do but I do not let them control me and it never takes me to that dark place. If I'm having a bad hair day, I make it a good hair day, hello hats and ponytails look cute too. :) If I look tired, I put on concealer and you know I like makeup. I'm not obsessed with it and I only wear it when I go out. Since I'm a stay at home mom, I do not need to wear it everyday. The point I'm trying to make is that I absolutely will not let these things affect me. I know who I am and who created me and I'm happy.


If you are going through low self esteem at this moment in your life, let me remind you that You are Beautiful and Valuable in God's eyes...


Poem:

I Was So Blinded by Marian Marrero

I would look in a mirror and not like what I see
My mind was made up that I was ugly
My confidence was destroyed
I didn't know who I was
I was so blinded

I was so blinded that I didn't even want to live
My dreams were shattered
I thought I had nothing to give
I was totally confused until I heard and read His Word
I looked into the bible and read Psalm 139
the part where it say we are beautifully created

He formed me in His image
So I was special all along, satan played me for a fool and took away my song

You see the word of God is life
Only He sees and says the truth
Satan is a liar! He wants to deceive you
So don't be blinded
You have so much more to give
You are God's creation and that's why you should live

You are special!




Psalm 139:13
13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.


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Awesome Jesus Tees And My New Song In the Midst of the Storm

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As many of you may or may not know last year in 2015, I was going through an illness in my body that almost led us to believe it was cancer. I was going through the wringer with many tests and exams and through it all I was trusting in Jesus and praised him in the midst of the storm.
Although, when I tried to sing in the beginning of the storm my voice would not come out because of the pain I would feel in my body. However, the Holy Spirit gave me this song to write and sing and when I had more strength, I was able to use my voice again for his people and for his glory! I am healed now and I thank God for it everyday!
Today someone needs His healing physically, emotionally and mentally so if this is you, listen to the lyrics of this song and carry it in your heart and on your mind and be encouraged and hopeful. Jesus is our healer! I want to thank my sista friend Lissette Silva for reminding me of what God has given me to share with the world.
Prayer is powerful! And miracles and Healing still exist!
In this video below, I was sick but still hopeful in my miracle from above...Have a blessed day❤️🙏🏼



  These were the words I posted on my FB page when I shared this accapella video of me singing "In the Midst of the Storm.
As people were watching, liking, sharing and receiving encouragement from the song, it touched a Christian T-shirt retailer to contact me on Instagram. He said every month he helps out ministries by sharing some of the proceeds from his shirt sales and asked if I wanted to be a part of it as well. I was so touched by his offer that I said Wow at first and then yes. Why? because not many do this and this person does because he has a heart to help others.

I asked him if he would be able to make a design including my song title because it was so personal to me and he happily agreed.
I am so delighted with this design and I wear it knowing what I was going through and where God has me now. 
This shirt design is truly a testament of remaining still and trusting in God through it all.

Awesome Jesus Tees was gracious enough to feature me on their website wearing the shirt. Since some of the proceeds go to my singing ministry, I would love to record my song "In the Midst of the Storm" and share it to the world to bring encouragement, hope and peace.

Ladies, Would you like to sow in this new recording and wear this shirt yourself and be a witness of what God has pulled you through or out of? If so you can order your shirt here at Awesome Jesus Tees for $22.99 with free shipping or if you are not interested in purchasing a shirt and would like to donate directly to my ministry so I can prepare a budget to record this new song, you can send donations through paypal at gevelmarrero@gmail.com
I thank you from the bottom of my heart and may God bless you all.




Product sponsored by Awesome Jesus Tees
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Oventure Packing Cubes And My Music On ITunes

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Press Sample: Product given by the Company for Testing and Review Purposes at a Discounted Price.

This product is very handy, very sturdy and very portable. Looking at all the reviews for these packing cubes on Amazon, I see that the major use is for travel and clothing items, but I also wanted to show you how I use them as well besides traveling. 

These cubes can also be used for keeping handbags nice and protected and stored until you're ready to use them. 
I'm also using them to store my CDs for when I go sing and want to sell them or just to save them on my closet shelf. 
I usually carry a huge carrying case when I go sing but with the medium cube they are nicely stored and convenient for portably and small enough to travel lightly.

I also used the smaller cube to store my clutches. These cubes are great! and their handles are just the right size for carrying and they can be used pretty much for anything you want safely and neatly stored for either travel or in your house or closet.

Here are some pictures on how I used mine but of course when I'm ready to travel and go on a plane or  prepare for my upcoming cruise some of these cubes will be used for my clothes except for one that is great for my undergarments and toiletries. 

I also forgot to mention these cubes are great for makeup palettes and cosmetics either for travel or to keep them neatly stored and dust free at home. 
I have so many ideas on how these cubes can be used so I'm glad I invested in them for my storage and traveling needs.You can get them on Amazon for $24.48 with Prime.
And since you all know that I'm a Gospel Singer because it says so on my Bio lol , I invite you check out my music by clicking MY MUSIC 



Here I stored and could fit my 2 large handbags in the larger cube, then you will see I stored 13 of my cd packs tied in rubber bands in the medium cube and then in the smaller cube I stored some of my smaller bags and clutches. And all cubes looked nice and neat and safely stored in my closet shelf.















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